I dont know what God is doing in my life.  He is bringing my past back to my present.  People that I haven't seen or heard from for more than 5... some more than 7 years... all of a sudden they're all back in my life. 

I never realized how much things have changed, including me... how I've changed... some of the changes are for the best (thanks to God), but some of the changes are for the worse (thanks to me hehe). 

I never realized how much I've forgotten about my past before I met God... and this allows me to rewind back to my days and see how much have changed since then. 

I miss all the people I knew from my past, and I wish I know where all of them are. 

I wish that I never lost touch with all of my old friends from school. 

I realized in the past two weeks that what makes you happy is not how much materials you have, or what you've accomplished, instead what makes you happy is/are the people or friends you have in your life. 

Alright, enough insight into my mind!

........

A song is stuck in my head ...

MengenalMu / To Know You

BILA KUBUKA MATAKU
DAN LIHAT WAJAH-MU
KU TERKAGUM

BILA KULIHAT HIDUPKU
DAN KARYA TANGAN-MU
KU TERSANJUNG

KAR'NA SEMUA YANG BAIK
DALAM HIDUPKU
ITULAH KARYA-MU
KAU B'RI K'SEMPATAN YANG BARU

REFF:
DAN KU INGIN MENGENAL-MU, TUHAN
LEBIH DALAM DARI S'MUA YANG KUKENAL
TIADA KASIH YANG MELEBIHI-MU
KU ADA UNTUK MENJADI PENYEMBAHMu

Let me translate that... the translation of the song on the website makes no sense

When I opened up my eyes,
While looking at Your face,
I am amazed

When I look at my life,
And the works of Your hands,
I am honored

Because all of the good things 
That are in my life,
They are Your wondrous works
You give me a brand new start

Chorus:

And I want to know You more my Lord
Deeper than all the things I've ever known
There is no greater love to know than Yours
I'm created here only to worship You.

Note ---- sometimes when all things of this world fails us, and our strength is not strong enough, and our intelligence is not smart enough... and you're laying there not knowing what to do.... that is when we realized that we're nothing without God's grace and love. 

It is by grace alone that we are even here... by grace alone that we are blessed, by grace alone that we are saved, by grace alone...

There is no greater joy Lord than to worship You... no greater joy Lord than to know You... no greater joy Lord than to be with You.

Nothing else seems to matter anymore when you really know God... cuz if you know God, then you know He has wonderful things planned for you...

RANDOM THOUGHTS

SO.. just a random thought... but someone who kills a person... they will be a murderer, and end up going to jail right...

What if instead of killing a person, they instead drove the person to commit suicide... isn't that the same thing?

Why then is the person who commited the suicide be blamed for taking their own life, while the person who basically drove them towards insanity and/or instability which then lead them to take their own life... can live a life without any condemnation from society?

.... just some random thoughts from me ... 

- biblical answers are not welcomed here seriously... do not put answers like, if you commit suicide you are going to hell, or if you hate your brother it is the same thing as being a murderer ... this is just a totally random thought.

- philosophical answers in the other hand can be posted as a comment only if a minimum of 2 e-props are attached with the comment.

I am soooooooooo bored

.... someone call me... or chat with me... or cheer me up...

here u go... my johari window link......

PLS... go to it, n help me figure out who i am...

http://kevan.org/johari?name=jonlahey